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Well on Saturday I said goodbye to my sister who is leaving to go to Germany for a year. I am quite pleased to see her go, we're not that close. Actually, we hate each other. But in front of parents, we are the best of friends. She makes snides remarks and tell the parenties that i'm slitting my wrists and doing things that i would never do. So now i have been banned from wearing black and going to flinders street. I NEVER WENT THERE apart from to meet friends. So life is kinda spaz at the moment.
We won our hockey game on Friday night 3-1 which was great. Except one of the guys on the other team ( i play mixed) looked like my ex. which was quite a scary thought, seeing that we parted on unpleasant terms. He did some things that I wasn't too impressed about and so I ended it. He wormed out why from a friend and he got kinda mad. So he called me heaps when we broke up and told me that he still loved me. Recently he has been in touch again (last time was in about March) and says that we should start talking again. I have no idea what to do! But I feel really guilty because I think that I may have broken his heart. Many have told me that I shouldn't feel guilty and he should get over it. But I still feel really bad and somehow want to just forget that I ever met him. Sad this is, that we have the same friendship groups. So lately I havn't been going out with people just in case we bump into each other. mega awkward.
My brother is doing year 12, so the whole family is stressed out. He's not doing too well, because he never does any work. He just builds and fixes computers and that's his day. He's always in a foul mood, never eats anything that is cooked for dinner and never talks apart from grunting. So you could say, that I understand grunts very well. I should after 8 years of it.
School is rather hectic, subject selection forms are due in and I have no idea what to choose. Also one of my friends is leaving for China in August. Which is terrible, because she's awesome. Everyone seems to be leaving our school, two of my friends last year left and then a girl in my home group is moving to Sydney and now one of my friends. Life just seems unfair some times. Apart from all that, and most of my friends being at school camp life is alright.
Since I have expressed all my feelings for this week I shall finish this entry.
Frenchie
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